Don't Understand

I don't quite understand the mentality of some people. I've come across situations when you dated someone few weeks in advance and instead of telling you if they are available or not, they will either not give you an answer or give you some lame answer such as "Let me think about it", "I'll tell you later" or "Not sure". But the answer is so simple. It's either a Yes or No. If you are available that day, then you tell people you can make it. If you are not available or don't feel like going out with them, then reject the invitation. There are no such things as thinking about it. If you need to think about it, it means you are simply treating this date as a backup. To elaborate, it means that you will only attend the event if you do not have any other events on that day. What makes you think that your friends should be treated as 2nd class friends. If you really cannot confirm due to some reasons, then explain yourself, don't keep people guessing. Unfortunately, I've got a few of such friends. They like to wait till last minute then they inform you of their decision. In some cases, their decision can even change a few times before the event. If someone dates me and I do not have anything on, I would usually agree to it. Unless the person who is dating me is someone whom I do not like to go out with. Even for such cases, I would decline the invitation with an excuse. Maybe these people have never organise an event in their life and they do not understand how difficult it is for people when you cannot give a definite answer. Anyway, I hope those who read my blog are not such people.

忘了为何忘了

记性有时是很吊诡的。你会记得一些不值得记着的事情，忘了一些自以为不会忘记的事情。

原来，人只是拥抱着时间洗涤不去的记忆。爱也好，恨也好，不会全部留着。我们记得一些，忘了一些，忘了为何忘了，也害怕会忘了不想忘记的，最璀璨的，深爱过的记忆，更不想对方比我首先忘记。

人是否简单?

我最近发现人长得越简单，就越不简单。原来一个人表现得单纯就代表他们心机很重。因为他们单纯的表面隐藏着邪恶的另一面。我比较喜欢跟真实的人交朋友。我不喜欢对人有防备之心。但发现我的观念是错的。就算对朋友也要有防备之心，因为我们不知道几时会被出卖。虽然我还未被出卖，但我却有被利用过。人难免会耍一点心机，我想是为了生存吧。但千万不要害人。因为害人是会有报应的。我相信善有善报，恶有恶报。

Christmas 2009

I must say this year's Christmas was more fun compared to last year. As usual, we had a dinner gathering at Irene's place. Since I worked till 1pm, decided to go rebond my messy hair @ Jeric Salon. Finished at 5pm and proceed to Fairmont to collect the honey baked ham for the gathering. Arrived at Irene's place at bout 7pm. We had a feast of pizza, fried noodle, roasted chicken, honey baked ham, satay, sushi and tarts that night. I didn't ate alot cause not much appetite due to the flu bug that I was having. After dinner, we proceed for KTV @ Teo Heng with YY, Cheryl, JC, Mycle & Alice. I was tired by 1am and fell asleep at the KTV. Finished KTV at 2am and went home with a tired body and mind.

Woke up by SMS on Christmas Day at around 12pm as I was due to watch movie Sherlock Holmes with frens at GV Plaza Sing. Met up with them at bout 230pm. I must say that the movie was a pretty good one though I did fell asleep midway through the movie. The plot is interesting and there was some funny parts which won't make you feel bored with a detective story. After movie, some of us proceeded to have dinner at Orchard Central. We ate at one of my fav Japanese restaurant. Managed to get to the rooftop garden of Orchard Central to have a view of the Orchard Road from there.

Boxing Day was another busy day cause I went to Cheryl & JC's place for their housewarming. Their place is a bit out of the way for those of us who were taking public transport but it was nicely renovated so I suppose it was worth the trip. Was really tired by the time I got home.

2009 Results

Wow, another year has passed. 2009 is almost coming to an end and it's time I conclude what I've done for the past year. I won't say that this has been a good year for me compared to 2008. There were changes in my work and things don't look good. I am still looking for a boyfriend which I am not having too much hopes on that. I've learnt alot through the hard way this year. Been through alot and seen alot. Not many of my resolutions were fulfilled. Fortunately, I still travelled alot this year. Been to Hong Kong twice, Taipei, KL & Genting. Though they were all short trips but it was a good break for me. Best thing that happened to me this year was to win the contest to watch MayDay concert in Hong Kong. I hope the good luck continues in 2010.

2009 has been a "sick" year for me. I've never fallen ill so many times in a year before. I was sick during Chinese New Year and also Christmas. Hope to get well soon enough to celebrate the countdown into 2010. Hope 2010 is a healthy year for me.

I am still thinking of my 2010 resolutions which I will share when they are ready.

I made a MISTAKE

Think I made a serious mistake. In my anxiety to go Bangkok, I invited the wrong people. Well, not all of them are bad. Only a person in particular. From the point we started planning for the trip, he was already a pain in the ass. Let me share with you why he is such a pain.

No 1:

Our initial plans for the trip were 4D3N but he suggested 5D4N. Since it was only a day difference, all of us agreed to it. But when I was checking on the air tickets, he changed his mind and suggested 4D3N. In the first place, why say 5D4N when you only wanted 4D3N.

No 2:

In order to save on taxi fare to & fro airport, he requested that we should take early flights to Bangkok & late flights back. To be frank, why would you wanna spend a shorter time there when you already paid for the air tickets to go there. Moreover, if you can afford to buy an air ticket, why can't you afford to take a cab. He can even go to the extend of commenting that 1 of my fren is rigid as he had a budget. He also stingy lor.

No 3:

He couldn't make up his mind on the trip at all. Cause when the air tickets went on promotion and we wanted to make the booking, he couldn't provide his confirmation. I thought most of us already gave our confirmation and were just waiting for the air tickets to get cheaper. He eventually gave his confirmation when I told him that I will go ahead to book for the rest of us.

No 4:

We had problem deciding on hotel. I shortlisted a few budget hotels with reasonable prices & good location. The prices & website address were sent to them. The hotels I shortlisted were Baiyoke Boutique, P2 Boutique, On8 Boutique and Twin Towers (which was suggested by the guy). Basically Twin Towers does not have a good location but the guy insisted on staying there cause he stayed there before and he dun know where the other hotels are. To be frank, you can checked the website to look at the location rather than insisting on your choice. I do not understand why he so rigid and yet he can still say that others is rigid. Fortunately, my other 2 frens also not keen with Twin Towers Hotel.

Lesson learnt: We should be more careful when choosing travelmates. I used to find some of my frens who travelled with me a pain but compare to this guy, I think that they are still bearable.

I seriously hope that he wun create more problems when we are in Bangkok. Think someone has to stop me from "killing" him.

收不起的思念

[放弃也是一种美，虽然有时它令人心碎，但面对崇高时我不得不收起心中的思念，因此，尽管我满含热泪，还是会真诚的往后退。]

没法不放弃的东西，总是美丽的，尤其是没法不放弃的爱情，仿佛都在身后闪烁着一道星河。

在爱情面前，崇高的往往不是理想，而是成全。

要是可以选择，谁又愿意孤独地崇高？

有时候，真诚的往后退，只是因为没有被选上。

可是，何时才可以收起心中对你的思念？

思念却总是愈想收愈泛滥成湖。

只有你自己不知道

有些女人，苦苦守候着一个男人，以为他终有一天会爱上她。大家都知道这个男人根本不爱她。他有时候约会她，只是因为寂寞，等他找到喜欢的女人，他便会走。这么明显的事情，只有她一个人不知道。

有些男人，以为他爱的女人也爱他，可是，大家都知道，她爱的只是他的钞票。要是他没钱，他便一点都不值得爱。这个真相，只有他不知道。

到底有多少事情是别人都知道，只有你不知道的？我们以为自己什么都知道，原来，关于自己的事情，我们知道的，有时候并不会比别人多。

Bad Break Up

Recently, I noticed a trend for couples who broke up. When a couple broke up, the guy or gal will start to party alot and upload alot of intimate pictures taken with opposite sex in FB to spite his/her ex. Even when it is a bad break up, neither party will attempt to remove each other from FB cause they still wanna be updated on each other's activities. I don't understand what is the purpose of doing that. To show your ex that you still got "market value"? I seen a few people doing that. These are not really my friends but it's interesting to observe their behaviour. I wonder what kind of result they want by doing that.

Happy Birthday!

Another year has passed. I've not contacted him for 2 years as I feel that his life is better without me. Anyway today is his birthday. Though I can't wish him personally but I still wanna send my wishes through my blog.

Hi Stephen

Happy Birthday to you. Hope you have an enjoyable birthday and may all your wishes come true.

I am searching.....

This is what I put in my FB status recently:"Jenny is searching..."'

Many friends asked me what I am searching for?

Well, I am searching for alot of stuff.

I am searching for my heart, for my soul, for a new job, for a true love, for friends, for more holidays, for cheap air tickets, for more fun in life, for new activities etc

Well, will continue my "search" to make my life a happier one.

2009 X'mas Wish List

As usual, to avoid friends getting me stuff that I won't use, I am going to share with you my X'mas Wish List. To make it easier, I will share those stuff that I dun need cause you may not want to buy me stuff from my Wish List.

Do NOT buy:

- Cosmetic pouches (I've got alot)

- Shower gels, perfumes, handcreams or anything with scent (my nose is senstive)

- Chocolates (I am trying to slim down)

- 2010 Calendar book (I bought one for myself le)

- Handphone strap (unless it's Gucci, Prada or LV) :P

- Handphone pouch (oredi bought a few for myself from Taiwan)

- Keychain (I dun have alot of keys to hang)

- Passport cover (I've only got 1 passport and it oredi has a cover)

- Luggage tags (No more expensive luggage tags cause I lost the Agnes B one that Abby gave me for X'mas 2 years ago, sad sad)

- Soft toys (I am not really into soft toys except for care bears)

- Hello Kitty stuff (received alot last year)

Wish List:

- Accessories (earrings are my fav, especially those with Star, Ribbon, Tiarra or Effiel Tower)

I will continue to update once I can think of what I need.

Many thanks for your understanding.

我真的那么好吗？

你说我真好
什么都好
谁当我情人做梦都会笑
我望着窗外的街角
看到辛酸走来幸福走掉
你说我真好
比谁都好
有适合的人要帮我介绍
如果我真的那么好
你为什么不要
为什么不要

我爱他 by 丁当

最近因为看了《下一站，幸福》 而认识这一首歌。我觉得是一首很感人的歌。

他的镜框留在 某一节车厢
地下铁里的风 比回忆还重
整座城市一直等着我
有一段感情还在漂泊

对他唯一(如果还有)遗憾 是分手那天
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
曾经依靠彼此的肩膀
如今各自在人海流浪

我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
逃不开 爱越深越互相伤害
越深的依赖 越多的空白
该怎么去爱
我爱他 轰轰烈烈最疯狂
我的梦 狠狠碎过却不会忘
曾为他 相信明天就是未来
情节有多坏 都不肯醒来

我爱他 跌跌撞撞到绝望
我的心 深深伤过却不会忘
我和他 不再属于这个地方
最初的天堂 最重的荒唐

如果还有遗憾 又怎么样呢
伤了痛了懂了 就能好了吗
我奔腾的眼泪 都停不下来
若那一刻重来 我不哭
让他知道我可以很好

我终于自由了

有一个人一直“住”在我的心里不肯离开。也许是我不让他离开吧。心里总是还抱着一点点的希望。希望他会发现我的改变，发现我的好。哪怕是有一点注意到我，就可以让我心满意足了。日子一天一天的过去了，自己也开始慢慢的把他从心里放开。也许已经有另一个人慢慢的走入我的生命，或许可能我对他终于死心了。这一段路不容易走，但我还是靠着自己的努力及朋友的鼓励走过来了。就像我喜爱的一首歌里的歌词：“放开了拳头，反而更自由”。我可以大声的宣布：“我终于自由了。” 但也希望自己不会再走进另一段没有结果的感情里。

Tell me the TRUTH

Guess many of my friends was wondering what had happened last week as I left alot of unhappy messages on my FB status. To be frank, it wasn't really a big incident. You could say that I was overreacting. Well, personally I don't like people to lie to me, whether it is of good intention or not. I rather friends tell me the truth and it is up to me to accept or not. I feel that things will get worse if you choose to lie and things gets worse when the truth is out. We are all adults so a good reason should be able to explain for your action rather than coming up with a lie. I always believe that the reason for a lie was because there was no proper reason to explain. For me, I prefer the truth no matter how cruel the truth can be.

Happy Birthday to ALL

Well, I am still busy & lazy to write about my Taipei trip. Purpose of this post is to wish some of my close friends whose birthday falls in October & November 2009. They are:

Alicia Chua (my ex-boss & mentor) : 11 October

Abby Lai (my best fren cum sista) : 11 November

Mycle Ku : 24 November

Dear All

Happy Birthday!!! May all your wishes come true and hope you had a wonderful birthday!!! Stay young & cheerful always.

Best wishes from Jenny

Long Time No See

Wow, jus realized that it's been a long time since I last updated my blog. Am I too busy or jus simply being lazy. I think it's more of being lazy. Just came back from a 5 day trip in Taipei with my parents. Will update it in my blog soon. No major events for the past 1+ month. My usual activities were KTV & badminton. Maybe watched movie or bowl occasionally. Have I found a boyfriend? Nop, not really. Still looking around for my Leo man. Life has been boring. Work has been boring. The year is coming to an end soon. Gonna be spending Christmas & New Year in Singapore cause no budget to travel anymore. Got to save some money for next year's travelling. Alot has happened this year. I guess it's part of life that you face changes & difficulties. I am still learning to deal with my own difficulties & changes. I seriously hope that next year will be a better year for me.

Good Old Days

Recently, I managed to get in touch with a long lost friend through Facebook. The last time we were in touch was when he was in Secondary 3 and now he has already completed his NS. He was one of the students when I was a IC in the SSA Future Division. If I don't remember wrongly, it's been more than 5 years. I guess you do lost touch with people along the way. Either we didn't make enough effort to keep in touch or people just drift away. It brings back alot of fond memories when you see a long lost friend again. I do enjoy the times when I was helping out in SSA FD. Though it was tough managing the students but there were times when we had fun. I do miss those good old days.

Women, What's your Problem?

I seriously do not understand what's wrong with the Singapore women nowadays. What is it that I find is wrong with them? Well, I noticed that alot of women cannot make up their minds when it comes to relationships. I am not sure if it is because they prefer to have more options or they really cannot make up their minds. Why would I say that? That's because I've come across a few "good examples" of such women. Let me share with you these real cases:

Example 1

Guy A falls for Gal B after knowing each other for some time. A started to chase B by dating her out often and showering her with gifts & flowers. A has hinted to B that he likes her but she did not give him a response nor reject him directly. This make A think that he has a chance to be B's boyfriend. One day, B suddenly appear with her boyfriend. B never told A that she was already dating someone. This really upset A as he was not prepared to know about it at all.

Questions: Why B continue to accept expensive gifts & treats from A when she already had someone in mind as her boyfriends? Was B ever interested in A? Why B didn't explain to A personally when she already have a boyfriend?

Example 2

Guy C falls for Gal D who already has a boyfriend Guy E. C decided to try chasing D since she didn't really reject him. They go out occasionally and D even share with C her problems she had with E. C even encourage D to try make things work with her boyfriend. But if her boyfriend is not treating her well, he will always be there for her. Eventually, D told C that she is starting to like him but she cannot leave her boyfriend. Despite knowing that he do not have much chance, C continue to stay by D's side when she needs him. One day. D told C that she broke up with her boyfriend and he thought he had a chance. However, D went back to E after a week. To make things worse, she continue pester C even though C already told her that he had given up hope on her.

Questions: Why can't D choose between C & E? If D already have a boyfriend, how can she fall for another man? Does she treat C as a "spare tyre"?

There were alot of questions when I heard these stories. Maybe I've never been in such a situation where there were more than 1 guy chasing me at the same time. But I do know that there is no way that I can love 2 guys at the same time. Because I will definitely feel guilty as it is not fair to both guys. One should never go into new relationship if your heart still contain feelings for another guy. In this case, I think those who had the courage to ask for a breakup or divorce to be with the person they really love are better than those who chose to keep quiet. Fortunately, the women in both examples are not my friends. If they are, I would have given them a piece of my mind. I cannot tolerate such behaviour. Well, I do hope that if I am in such situations, I can manage better. Last but not the least, I'll like to apologise to friends for using their stories in my blog. I also hope that after reading this post, you will also know how to manage when you are in such sitation whether you are man or woman.

Samung Omnia HD i8910

After waiting for more than 2 weeks, I finally bought the Samsung Omnia HD phone on 19 Sept 09. Didn't pay a single cent for it cause I took up the M1 Take3 Plan which means that the phone is on"rental" but I would have to return it after 2 years. Should I not return it, I will only need to pay about $200 for it. I would have to pay about $668 if I were to sign a 2 years contract on my existing plan. Now I need not pay any amount for it. I hope the phone won't disappoint me like my Sony Ericsson C905. I am keeping my fingers crossed.

As the whole phone is glossy finishing, I sent it for GMask wrap cause I cannot stand fingerprints all over my phone.

Cherry Garden @ The Mandarin Oriental

Months after getting a $50 dining voucher at the GE D&D, I've finally decided to use it to treat myself to dim sum lunch at Cherry Garden. Went there on 19 Sept 09 since the voucher is expiring on 30 Sept 09. Decided to go for the dim sum alacarte buffet lunch since its cheaper. But the price still cost $45++ per pax. But I would say it's worth the amount cause the food was quite good. My fav is the charsiew bao but it's not the most tasty dish of all lah. Anyway it was a sinful lunch which I spent a week getting rid of the weight I put on for that meal. Think it's not a bad idea to have a good meal like this every few months.

活到老，学到老

俗语说:“活到老，学到老”。我完全同意这个说法。原来我是过了３０岁才开始我的学习旅程。这两年来我学了很多。学习如何对待人，学习如何呈现自己最好的一面，学习控制自己的脾气，还有许多许多。每个人都需要进步。这就是我现在一直在努力做的一件事。

Tough Week

It's been a tough week. Things seem to be a bit complicating but I am sorting them out. I think I've been very blessed cause I have alot of friends who showed their concerns for me and also gave me their support & encouragement even though many of them did not know what was happening. I am not someone who need people to be always there to care for me. I feel touched so long you made the least effort to show your concern as a friend. It is during such tough times that you know who are those whom you can depend on. I have always been a "fighter" so I am not about to surrender. I will continue to do my best to fight this "war". Gambatei!!!

五月天创造DNA 演唱会 (29 August 2009)

期盼已久的五月天创造DNA 演唱会终于到来了。虽然我已经欣赏了他们在香港的演唱会，但还是对新加坡的演唱会有所期待。由于已购买了29日的门票，所以没办法观看他们在28日的十周年演唱会。29日的表演还是没有我期盼的那么好。开场没多久就发现阿信的声音沙哑，有许多歌他都飙不上。不知道是因为28日唱太久了，还是新加坡天气太热了。新加坡歌迷也没有香港歌迷热情，虽然大部分歌迷都站着看演唱会。后来看了报纸发现28日那场的确比29日的好。有点后悔没有买票看28日的演唱会，没能与五月天度过他们的十周年演唱会。但是我还是会继续支持五月天的。我也要特别谢谢一位好朋友，是他让我在两年前开始认识与支持五月天的。也许他已没那么支持五月天了，但我永远会是五月天的忠实歌迷。希望五月天能再唱十年。

DF Gathering (28 August 2009)

Well, it was time for a DF Gathering upon request by Hui Lam & Beng. I decided to start the session earlier at 9pm since those working in AIA had to go for a Charity Walk the next morning. As the organiser, I was there at 9pm sharp to check in to the room. I was glad that they were able to give us the Lucille Room upon my request. The room had left me alot of fond memories and that's where we took our very first DF group picture. 25 months down the road and we were back in the same room for a gathering. As you can see from the pictures, some of us have changed. I think it's not just the outlook but maybe also in terms of our mentality. Somehow the gathering seemed quite "boring". There weren't much excitement & fun. Everyone was just sitting talking among their own group, singing songs or listening to others sing songs. Anyway, I did try my best to catch up with some friends but I could feel the broken links and the lost connections between some people. Well, I could think of a few reasons for the "odd behaviours":

- They are tired after work and had to wake up early the next day for the walk

- They no longer treasure the friendship or enjoy the company of these friends

- They have become more matured so no more childish behaviours like getting drunk or crying

Beng couldn't make it cause he was sick and Hui Lam only came at about 12am. Some left early due to the walk. Maybe I organised it on a wrong date. Did I have a great time? Let's just say I didn't have a bad time. The only thing that I felt bad was my singing weren't good that night. Oh, another unbelievable thing is that we only drank 1.5 bottle of vodka with an attendance of 13 pax. It was never in the history of DF sessions that we drank so little. Since they no longer enjoy alcohol, maybe we should have kopi drinking sessions the next time (if there is any).

Anyway, I still want to thank everyone for taking time and making the effort to be there.

Recent Updates

Hmmn, I haven't been updating my blog for the past few weeks. Few reasons: 1) Running out of topics to write. 2) Can't seem to sign in to my blog in the office. 3) Busy playing FB RC.

Anyway, nothing interesting has happened over the past few weeks. As usual, my fav weekend activity is hanging out at KTVs. But now, I am expanding my KTV network to Woodlands & even Mono @ St James. Went to Woodlands to sing KTV + eat Botak Jones 2 weeks back. This is the first time I had Batok Jones and it was pretty yummy. I recently also went to Mono @ St James to sing KTV at the open hall. It was a challenging experience. It's been quite a while since I sang i front of so many strangers. Not a bad experience except I didn't manage to hit the notes for one of the song I sang. Let's hope no one remembered me for that.

I've also catch a few movies for the past few weeks. Watched GI Joe & UP. I quite like the GI Joe movie cause the action was good. As for UP, it was a touching story. I watched UP in 3D which I realized there wasn't much 3D effects so it's not really necessary to watch it in 3D.

Well well, I am looking forward to this coming weekend as I already have a few events line up. Friday will be DF Gathering with usual gang. Saturday will be MayDay Concert and Sunday be NATAs fair. Stay tune for updates on these events.

Happy 2nd Birthday to My Blog

It is my greatest pleasure to announce that my blog is 2 years old!!! It has been my channel of venting my frustrations and sharing my joys. I would like to thank those who have been supporting my blog. I know that I've written lots of crap here but I am sure some things do make sense. It's been a tough 2 years. Many things have changed. I cannot even remember what I wrote for the past 2 years. I guess it's time I sit down and read my own blog. Hope I can continue to share with everyone my life experiences.

070809 : Congratulations to Jing Chuan & Cheryl

Today is a special day for my friends Jing Chuan & Cheryl. This is the day that they exchange their vows and be legally bonded with each other. After about 11 months of courtship, they have decided to settle for each other & also settle down. I wish to offer my heartiest congratulations to them.

"In a word, there are three things that last forever: faith, hope, and love; but the greatest of these is love. May your love be everlasting and happiness be with you always. May today be only the beginning of a lifetime of dreams come true.”

景川与秀娟,

願你倆恩恩愛愛，意篤情深，此生愛情永恆，愛心與日俱增！
百年恩愛雙心結，千里姻緣一線牽.

祝你们:
喜結良緣
百年好合
心心相印
永結同心
永浴愛河
愛心永恆
白首偕老
天長地久
佳偶天成

Note: For your info, I am not as talented as YY, so most of the above were found on the internet. Hehe :P.

Scary Experience

I had a scary experience yesterday. I was on my way home from Orchard and when I alight at the bus stop, a young man started following me. I saw the man when walking towards home but didn’t notice that he was following me as I was listening to songs on my iPod. Saw him walked towards another block when I was opening my mailbox. I only knew he was following me when I arrived home and my mom came to open the door for me. She saw the man following me and ran away when he saw her at the door. When she told me about it, I then realized that the man had started following me from the bus stop. I do not know his intention but most likely he wanted to rob me as I was carrying my Gucci bag. I vaguely recalled that the young man looks decent and below 25 years old. He was wearing black t-shirt & black bermudas. I started to get worried upon knowing that I was almost robbed at my doorstep. Now that the young man knew which unit I am staying at, I am not sure if he would attempt to rob me again. Got a scolding from my mom for listening to iPod and not being sensitive to the environment around me. Think I am very blessed because if my parents were not home, the man would have followed me into the house and robbed or harmed me. Told some friends who advised me to report the matter to the NPC. So I called the NPC last night to alert them on the matter. Although nothing happened to me but after this experience, I decided that I should be more careful moving forward. My worst experience was to have my handphone pick pocketed at Tampines Mall. Now I get pretty paranoid when I notice someone walking closely behind me especially when I am alone. It’s been a pretty scary experience. I also want to alert all the ladies to be careful when going home alone at night. For your info, I am staying at Tampines Street 81.

Health is Wealth

Well, I got the title from my friend's MSN status. Not that I am having health issues but both my parents recently found out that they have minor health issues. My mom has got high cholesterol and my dad has got both high cholesterol & diabetes. Both are now under medications to control their health problems. Fortunately, it was discovered early and could be controlled with medications. There are many things in life that we can buy with money. Even for relationships, you can always find another one if the previous one didn't turn out well. Health is different. No amount of money can buy you back good health again. For some cases, it may be too late when we discover it. I am not saying that we should be very health conscious all the time but we should still know how to take care of our own health. I hope that my family & friends will continue to have good health.

MSN is back in operation

After almost 10 days without MSN, I've finally managed to get the problem fixed. I have tried all the methods to troubleshoot the problem but it didn't helped. On Monday, my bro YY suggested that I may wanna try set up a new account. I decided that before setting up a new account, I could try changing the password to see if it helps. To my surprise, I was able to access my MSN after changing the password. Well, I am happy to have my MSN back in operation.

Feeling Sick or Falling Sick???

Haven been feeling good for the past 2 nights. Not sure if I am just feeling sick or really going to fall sick. Nose feeling itchy again. Think I am gonna pop some flu medication and get to sleep soon. Seriously hope that I am NOT falling sick AGAIN cause I just recovered from one about a month ago. Maybe I should really take good care of myself cause I am not young anymore. Alrightz, I am feeling drowsy from the flu medication, going to catch my beauty sleep now. Good night.

MSN Crashed!!!

I am not very lucky this week. My MSN crashed since Saturday. I have not been able to sign in and kept getting this error code 80048820. Tried all the methods to troubleshoot and resolve the problem. I even uninstall the program and install an older version thinking it was the new version of the program that had problem. I also emailed the system administrator about my problem. None of these could fixed the problem. I've been using eBuddy since then and getting really frustrated using it. I wonder if it's my computer or the program that is problematic. I only know that a problematic gal like me is stuck with a problematic computer. Somebody please help!!! I desperately need help to fix my MSN. If you know how to fix it, please contact me soonest possible.

My Most Compatible Sign - LEO

Well well, I've been told many times that my most compatible horoscope is Leo. The compatibility rate is as high as 92%. I do agree that I get along very well with Leo guys. I've met a few along the way but none is fated. I guess there is no harm trying. So friends out there, if you have any single & available Leo man, do recommend them to me. I'll need all the Leo man I can find since there ain't seem to be many out there. Btw, please don't ask me to go to the Zoo to look for one cause there was a friend who told me that before. This joke is cold & an old one.

Protecting Myself

I am learning to protect myself. I've been hurt badly 2 years ago and at the same time I've also hurt another person. I guess people learn from their mistakes and I am learning from mine. Done alot of stupid things back then and I am not going to repeat the same mistake again. I am standing at a cross junction now and I have to be careful with the path I take. A wrong step can cause me to fall and break into pieces again. Forgive me if you find my behaviours or actions odd but these are just to protect myself. I know some of you may start to think that it's probably gonna to do with this Exxx guy but please believe me, I have absolutely no feelings for him now. I do admit that there was a bit of crush initially but that was long over. I am a person who believes in developing the feelings and not love at first sight. I am ok with him as a friend but nothing more. The most important thing now is to prevent myself from being hurt badly cause it took me a long time to stand on my feet again.

一念之差

对与错只是一念之差。有许多人因为这样而误入歧途或做错决定。每一件事都要从不同角度去观察。不要仓促的做出决定。往往要考虑一下身边的人的感受。也许有些事我们觉得是对的，但在别人的眼里是错的。对与错是很难去衡量的。最重要的是问心无愧。

心灵解药

今天包包比往常重了一些。因为包包里多了一本书。最近心情觉得有点空虚，需要一些心灵解药。朋友介绍我看作家张小娴的散文。于是，我昨天跑了一趟书局，买了两本她的作品。已经开始读其中一本作品。发现她写的文章都很有意义。如果有兴趣可跟我借去读。以下是我从书里读到的：

“每一次离别，都是一份惆怅。因为总有一次离别是不会再见的。”
“拥抱的感觉真好，那是肉体的安慰，是尘世的奖赏。”
“在旅途上渴望踏上归途。归来了，又渴望再一次踏上旅途。”
“我们不敢错过有过美丽回忆或美好经验的地方，不是放不开，而是舍不得。”
“放在身边的东西，从来没有察觉它的好处，一旦失去了，才知道自己错过了什么。”

ION Orchard

I finally visited the newly opened shopping mall in Orchard call ION on last Saturday. As I was with some friends and the place was pretty packed, we just walk around to see what are the shops they have. We had our dinner at 鹿港小镇 which serves Taiwanese dishes. The price is reasonable and food is nice. Yesterday, I decided to pay a 2nd visit to the mall on my own so that I can slowly see what they have. The shopping isn't that fantastic as mostly were branded boutiques. But I would highly recommend the dining & gourmet corner @ Basement 4. They managed to get some of the good local delicacies to set up stalls there. I was totally amazed with the amount of nice food I can find there. The varieties offered are much better than Tampines 1. Think I am going to be paying frequent visits there to eat my fav food.

Nice Quote

Hehe, I "stole" this from my bro's blog:

"Don't love someone when the person is not ready to accept your love or love you. Love the person only when you get the right signals. And you won't suffer from deep hurt when you realise you are not being loved."

A Leopard Can Never Change Its Spots

If you’ve been a regular reader of my blog, you would remember that I mentioned about a friend who always visit Thai pubs. If my memory didn’t fail me, it was almost a year ago that I heard about his regular visits to Thai pubs. To my surprised, I was told that he is still having the same routine visiting Thai pubs after work everyday and spending money on drinking & Thai girls. I am pretty impressed with his energy level considering that he is older than me. How can one go clubbing almost every night till wee hours and still go to work the next day? To make it more interesting, I wonder how he managed to convince his girlfriend to allow him to visit such places or how he had lied to his girlfriend about his busy night life??? And I am pretty sure that he does not have a “gentle” girlfriend. Initially, I thought he would probably get sick of such lifestyle after few months. I never expect him to linger in such places for so long. I guess he is really into Thai music & babes. I’ve heard that Thai gals are very pretty but I guess most of them are after your money since they are working in pubs. I jokingly asked that guy friend to open a Thai pub himself since he goes there so often. I cannot understand his obsession with Thai pubs or maybe Thai girls. Nothing wrong with it but it also depends on your status. If you are a single, nobody would care how often you visit such places. But if you are attached, then you must always spare some thoughts for your other half. Always put yourself in the other party’s shoes and ask yourself how you would feel if she did the same thing to you. Well, if you are single like me, then you have every right to have all the fun you want. But if you are attached, please be a RESPONSIBLE boyfriend/girlfriendhusband/wife.

What do you know about Love?

Think I probably wrote about this topic some time back but I can't really remember what I wrote. People have their own definitions of Love. In this post, I mean specifically love in a relationship and not love for family or friends. How do you know when you fall in love with someone? For me, I will call it love when I keep thinking of the guy and my heart beats faster every time I see him. There must be chemistry between us. I hope to fall for someone who can understand me well and share similar interests with me. There are bound to be differences but I do believe that besides love, both parties must also strive to compromise and resolve all problems. Love also mean being devoted to the other party. There is no way you can love 2 persons at the same time. Even if there is, you must have love one more than the other. There is also no way that you can fall in love with another person shortly after breaking up with the previous partner. I always feel that the new partner is just a substitute. Don't do this to someone who truly loves you. Think before you accept another person's love.

On the other hand, how do you know if someone loves you? Well, there are different ways to portray one's love. But what you need to know is don't misunderstand other's care & concern for you as love. Some gals think that when a guy treats her nice means it's love. For goodness sake, we are in the 21st century, guy & gal can be close friends. Don't assume, find out more before you decide that the guy really loves you. I learnt my lessons from past experiences. Never tell a guy you love him until you are very sure he loves you too. To make your life easier, NEVER fall for someone unless you are sure he/she has the same feelings for you. It is a waste of time & energy to get rid of the feelings when you realize he don't like you. When I say don't fall in love easily don't mean not giving others a chance to know you better. Most couples started as friends. I never believe in love at first sight. Even if you cannot become a couple, you can still remain as friends. It is always good to expand your social circle. I am also working hard to expand my social circle.

To end this post, I would like to conclude that love cannot be forced, it must be a mutual feeling between 2 parties. A one sided relationship won't work. If you think that maybe the other party will eventually fall in love with you if you wait for him, forget it and go find a better man. There ain't many such successful cases out there. I personally experienced it.

I hope that everyone of you out there will eventually find your true love. Remember to treasure the person if you have already found him/her.

Good Food

I was supposed to cut down on all the good food since I ate quite alot in KL but seems like this week I had alot of temptations.

On Monday, a friend bought me dinner at Chen Fu Ji cause both of us never tried the famous fried rice there. The fried rice tasted nice but not fantastic. I feel that the fried rice stall at Amoy Street Market is better. So don't bother spending so much on a plate of fried rice.

The famous Chen Fu Ji Fried Rice

I've telling alot of my friends about this place call Ice Kimo that sells really good ice cream. I've been there twice so far but with friends who drove and knows the place. I never knew how to go there on my own since it's somewhere in Thomson, an area which I am not familiar with. Finally on Wednesday, a friend who is familiar with that area decided to show me the way there via public transport. We took the Circle line to Marymount and walked about 10mins to reach the place. Had dinner in a small cafe located in the nearby CC on our way there. The claypot noodles there is cheap & good. After dinner, we proceed to have our ice cream for dessert. I managed to try my favourite ice cream flavour Rum & Raisin. Been there twice but they never had Rum & Raisin. Seems like it is not an everyday flavour. I am glad that I managed to taste it on my 3rd trip there. Trust me, if you have the time or you know the way, go try the ice cream there. It's so far the best I've tried in Singapore.

Close up of the claypot noodle

Me & my claypot noodle

Rum & Raisin + Tiramisu ice cream

Trying out the yummy Rum & Raisin ice cream

Durian Waffle with durian ice cream

KL Trip (17-19 July 2009)

As usual, I needed a short break every 3mths. Last overseas trip was to HK to watch MayDay concert. Since it was the Malaysia Megasale in July & Aug, decided to plan a short trip there with some friends. It took us a while to confirm the trip as we could not fix the date & mode of transportation. Finally confirmed the trip and decided to take Tiger Airways since there was a promotion. There were 4 of us going for the trip: Myself, YY, Eric & Catherine. Since some of us had a tight budget, we decided to all bunk in to a triple room.

17 July 2009 (Friday)

We took the 315pm flight from Budget Terminal to KL LCCT. Arrived in KL at bout 430pm and it took us a while to clear the customs, grab a cab & arrived at our hotel. We stayed at Hotel Capitol which is conveniently located in Bukit Bintang. Arrived at the hotel at about 630pm. After checking in and freshening ourselves up, we proceed to Chinatown for our shopping & dinner. Chinatown basically sells alot of non-authetic stuff. You can actually grab a couple of nice t-shirts at pretty cheap prices. We had our dinner at this famous wanton noodle shop. It's not too bad lah. My favourite is the Longan aka Mata Kuching drink. We all love the drink. We left Chinatown at about 9pm to go back to the hotel to put our stuff and also get ready for our next session which was KTV @ Red Box Low Yat. Our session was from 10pm to 1am. It also came with free supper which started at 1230am. Think I ate quite alot on our 1st day in KL. Went back to the hotel to rest for our full day event on the next day.

18 July 2009 (Saturday)

We started the day with breakfast @ A&W in KLCC. Also spent some time shopping there. It was a big shopping mall with mostly branded stuff which is almost the same as Pavilion. Don't bother wasting time to go there unless you want to visit the Petronas Twin Tower. After KLCC, we went back to Bukit Bintang area to have lunch at famous 明记叉烧. Most of us were happy with our lunch cause the charsiew was delicious. After lunch, it was more shopping at Pavilion, Berjaya Times Square & Sungei Wang. I was a bit disappointed as I was expecting myself to buy lots of stuff but seems like the sale wasn't that fantastic. I was too tired to shop by the time we were at Sungei Wang. Ended up going back to the hotel early. In the evening, we went over to Jalan Alor for our dinner. We ordered quite alot of stuff such as the traditional black sauce hokkien mee, oyster pancake, grilled fish, luk luk & my fav Wong Ah Hua chicken wings. As I had craving for durian, the rest had to accompany me to eat durian after dinner. I had a D24 durian for M$23 and it was a good buy. Ate almost the whole durian all by myself. I was sooo full by the time we finished. We went back to the hotel to washed up cause Eric, YY & myself be going to Zouk. We arrived at Zouk at about 11pm. The queue was pretty long but we managed to get in quite fast. The concept in Zouk KL is almost the same as S'pore. They also have Velvet Underground, Phuture & Zouk. We ended up in Phuture cause that's where most people are and it's my fav Hip Hop zone. I must say that I was impressed with the cheongsters in KL. Most of them came dressed ready to party. The gals were mostly wearing dresses & heels and guys mostly in shirts. They were all well groomed. I also find more good looking guys there compare to S'pore. Maybe because of their dress sense that made them better looking. S'pore guys mostly wear tshirts to clubbing. My 2 guy friends Eric & Javier were happy too cause there were alot of chiobus and their eyes were busy the whole night. We left Zouk at 1am as I was really tired.

19 July 2009 (Sunday)

We decided to spend our last few hours in KL at Chinatown again. Seems like there are more stuff to buy there. Food is also nicer. We had chee cheong fun + dim sum. I also bought some snacks along the way. We also went back for our 2nd round of longan drink. Went back to the hotel at about 12pm to pack & wait for taxi to pick us up to go to airport. Arrived at the airport at 230pm and went to have our lunch at Marrybrown before checking in. Took the 440pm flight back to S'pore. I was so tired that I slept throughout the flight journey although it was just 45mins. Lucky Abby & Philip gave me a lift home cause they were fetching Catherine. Thank you so much for the ride home.

Overall, it was a good break. I quite enjoyed the company. Though the shopping sucks but the food was fantastic. I still miss the longan drink & charsiew rice.

武林高手比内力，两败俱伤。(from another blogger)

有话不说，怕伤害。
说而不全，怕被伤害。

吞吞吐吐，原本简单的沟通，已经崩溃了。

踌躇，不敢踏出去。
犹豫，不想往回走。

原地踏步，原本稳固的感觉，已经坍塌了。

放，可惜。
不放，难过。
收，抗拒。
不收，浪费。

拖泥带水，原本清澈的事实，已经浑浊了。

不敢说，不敢走，不敢放，不敢收。
感情事，勇士也成了懦夫。
躯体上的伤痛，忍一忍就过了。
心灵上的蹂躏，时过境迁，却仍然隐隐作痛。

把自己能清楚，才发现别人还在琢磨着。
别人清楚了，自己却已经又混乱。

武林高手比内力，两败俱伤。
没有人肯让步，都是在同一个位子上打圈圈。
会不会有一天，路人无意从圈子穿过，才打开这个僵局？

就算外面刮台风，我的世界依然风平浪静，那会多好？(from another blogger)

如果我静静不说话，是否就能听到心里那无声的哀求？
如果世界静静不喧闹，是不是才能察觉我已不在？
如果心静静不混乱，情绪会不会就此罢休？
如果静静地，静静地，我是不是，会不会，可不可能摆脱现在的烦乱，无助，无奈？

喜欢夜里下着雨。
隔着玻璃窗看雨滴划过，
街灯闪烁得特别有情调。
雨声配着不同的歌曲，歌词的味道特别浓。

若现实中，我也能隔着玻璃窗看世界，外面的风风雨雨碰不到我，
但我却看得清清楚楚。
可以放心观赏，却不会被伤害。
听到的喧闹声，也只是在搭配我世界里的歌曲。
可以尽情聆听，却不会太刺耳。

一片玻璃，给予的保护有限。
可是现在，我真的好想有着这样的保护。
至少我能隔绝自己，不影响别人，也不会被影响。

只想静静地，静静地，听着雨，看着雨。

就算外面刮台风，我的世界依然风平浪静，那会多好？

也许

也许，我太会照顾自己，所以没有人认为我需要被照顾。
也许，我的要求太高了，所以没有人真的在努力。
也许，我不是公主，所以没有资格期盼王子。

人生没有NG的特权 (from another blogger)

连续剧，用周围的一切，加盐加醋，夸张然后包装完美地呈现给观众。

我们，不知不觉都被这又咸又酸，放大后后的完美人生给迷倒了。

我们，有些沉迷太深，执迷不悔，无法自拔。
一心要寻找那个完美的男女主角，浪漫的爱情故事，百分百甜蜜的大结局。

我们都忘了，连续剧有剧本。
编好的台词，摆好的灯光，无误的音响，无限的道具，适合的场景。
阵法都摆好了，演员要做什么，说什么，都ok了。

我们都忘了，连续剧是由剪接的。
这里拍一点，那里拍一点，一剪一接，就是一出无暇的戏码。
就算不可能的，都可以用电脑特效帮个忙，变成理所当然的。

我们都忘了，连续剧可以NG的。
说错了词，走错了位置，一声‘卡’后，重来。
直到没有错误为止，重来后，还可以加以修改，再重来。

但是，人生没有这些特权。
因为没有台词，所以我们无法预知对方要说什么。
因此，误会会发生。
因为没有剪接，所以我们无法分两头跑。
因此，再完美的策划，还是会有瑕疵。
因为没有NG，所以我们无法删掉的所作所为。
因此，有遗憾，有后悔。

或许，要求高是为了保护自己，让自己有最好的，那不是罪吧？
可是，最好的，是什么？
如果最好的根本不存在，那么要从哪里妥协？
如果不能妥协，是否一个人过，才能保护自己呢？

知己

知己的意思应该是亲密好友吧。可是他却不同与一般好朋友。知己是位非常了解你的人。也是位你能分享所有的事物的人。你们能有许多聊不完的话题。也能包容彼此的缺点。但他/她却不是你的另一半。不是每个人都有个知己。但我觉得如果有是件好事。很庆幸的是我找到了我的知己。愿这份友谊能长久。

Stefanie Sun Concert 2009

After waiting for 3 years, it feels really great to see Stefanie Sun concert again. I consider myself a fan of her songs and would not miss her concert. Been waiting for her to hold her concert in Singapore for the past 3 years. I went with no expectations since the last time I saw her concert was 3 years ago. Did read some reviews about her concert in Taipei few months back. Not long after the concert started, I am already impressed by her charm & talent on the stage. Even though that she have not been performing much for the past few years, her charm was still there. Compared to the last concert, this was definitely a better one. Stefanie not only impressed me with her singing, she also proved that she can dance. The stage effect & costumes were also impressive. Though it was not the best concert that I've seen but it was worth every cent that I paid for. Look forward to Stefanie's next concert in Singapore again and hope she will continue to launch more albums to showcase her talents.

Changes in Life

I believe that changes are inevitable in life. We need to constantly learn & change for the better to suit the environment or the people around you. It is never a good idea to draw a circle around yourself and live in it thinking that you are happy. No one is perfect in this world. If you think you are, then it is your thinking that is not perfect. You also cannot expect people around you to change to suit your character. I used to think this way but I am slowly changing my mentality. We should always keep our good characters and change the bad ones. There is no one with only good characters. There are bound to be some bad habits in everyone. I know some people thinks that they are happy the way they are and they do not need to change. But have you ever wonder if people around you are happy with some of your strange characters or habits? Well, some people are more self-centered than others. Those who are very self-centered will never reflect on themselves. I am also learning to change to suit the environment. I learn to be more receptive and also learn the good characteristics of friends around me. No matter how perfect you think you are, it's time to reflect and change to become better in life.

How Do You Define a Good Travel Companion?

I've travelled on several occasions with different group of friends and now I am wondering how do you define a good travel companion? Here are some of my thoughts:

1. Not stingy & calculative.

2. Good time management.

3. Compromising & accommodating

I suppose these are some important things that we look out for in our travel companions.

A Fruitful Weekend

After a tiring but fun Friday, Saturday was also a day full of activities for me. Unfortunately I had to go back to the office to finish some work. Met up with Selina & YY @ Marina Sqaure for bowling at about 4pm. Abby & Philip only managed to join us during our 3rd game. None of us played exceptionally well cause the lanes there sucks. I still prefer the lanes @ Hougang or Mount Faber. After bowling, 3 of us had dinner at MS foodcourt while Abby & Philip left for dinner elsewhere. After dinner, we went to 爱情海 to listen to their "live" singing. The group who sang the 1st session was very good. Halfway through the 2nd session, we decide to leave cause they didn't sing very well. We decided to go sing KTV after leaving 爱情海. We went to KBox @ Marina Square and sang till 3am. It was pretty expensive but I enjoyed it cause manage to learn how to sing some of the difficult songs. Thanx to YY & Selina for all the tips.

Sunday is sleeping day for me. I woke up at about 2pm cause got Hip Hop dance class at 5.30pm. We didn't have class the week before so my bones are getting a bit stiff. The new dance we learnt was quite cool cause it has got more groove in it. It's definitely better than LA Hip Hop.

Well, this was how I spent my last weekend. Am looking forward to more fruitful weekends ahead.

M5 Exam (03 July 2009)

Been busy for the past week studying for my M5 exam. Been wanting to take it during my A days but didn't had the time to do so. Since I am on my 2nd job in the Insurance industry, thought I should get my certified in this area. Decided to take M5 first cause friends told me it was an easier paper. Though I got the book few weeks ago but I never really got to really studying it. I only managed to start studying on Monday when my exam was on Friday. Wanted to study in the office but didn't had much time to do so cause was busy with reports again. I even went to watch the movie Transformers with come frens on Wednesday. It was tough for me as I hadn't been studying for the past 7-8 years. With the help of mock papers + some last minute studying, I eventually managed to pass the paper. Many thanks for all my frens' encouragement. After a stressful week, decided to reward myself with a nice dinner with frens at AMK. We went to eat my fav hokkien mee & also had satays. It was a sinful but delicious dinner. After dinner, we walked back to AMK Hub for some shopping + desserts @ MOF. I was pretty tired & sleepy by the time I went home as I had stayed up till 2am to study the day before. I am gonna take a short break before signing up for the next paper which most likely gonna M9.

Happy Birthday to Daphne

This post is a bit late but I still wanna wish our "rabbit" sista Daphne Happy 30th Birthday on 27 June 2009. Some of us were at her birthday party @ NSRCC yesterday and we had a great time. It's great to see that she is a cheerful & bubbly 30 year old who is going to be a mummy soon. I hope she had an enjoyable birthday and am looking forward to her baby shower.

Can You Keep A Secret???

A friend told me recently that I shouldn't be telling one of our mutual gal friend secrets cause we all knew that she doesn't keep secrets. He said that I should know that cause she has been telling everyone about other people's secrets. I admitted that I knew it all along so I never really wanted to share with her my secrets. Even some things she think she knew, I also won't tell her. But I never expect her to be so terrible that she can even start to telling the whole world even it's just a small thing. I guess she needs alot of attention and by sharing other's stuff, she gets the attention she wanted. I cannot understand why there are such people around. Why can't they respect a person's privacy? It has made me come to a point where I do not know who I can trust. I am worried that they start sharing my secrets with others. Now I try to be careful with the things I share with friends. One of friend ever said:"A secret is never meant to be kept. And if it is really a secret, then you should not even tell anyone about it." I am starting to think that he is right to a certain extent. Maybe there are times that you cannot share your own secrets, so you start to share your friend's secrets. I may done it unknowingly at times too. Think I must also reflect on my own behaviour before I can comment on others. To make things worse, besides telling others about your secrets, there are some who added their own "spice" to make it more interesting. At the end of the day, the stuff were not even the same as what you told her. I wonder how long such people can survive in the society. Your creditworthiness would be all used up in a short period of time. Like I always say, earn your own trust & respect. Don't expect it to drop from the sky. God gave you friends but it is your own effort to maintain the friendship. So let's all start to learn how to KEEP A SECRET! :P

心墙

一个人　眺望碧海和蓝天　
在心里面　那抹灰就淡一些
海豚从眼前飞越　
我看见了最阳光的笑脸
好时光都该被宝贝　因为有限

我学着不去担心得太远　
不计画太多　反而能勇敢冒险
丰富地过每一天　快乐地看每一天　Wooh～
第一次遇见阴天遮住你侧脸
有什么故事好想了解　
我感觉我懂你的特别

你的心有一道墙　但我发现一扇窗　
偶尔透出一丝暖暖的微光
就算你有一道墙　我的爱会攀上窗台盛放　
打开窗你会看到悲伤
融化你会闻到幸福晴朗的芬芳

美梦别成真 让我梦醒不留疤痕

暗恋的明灯 一路上如烟火随身
宁愿那想像的情人 永远 保温
美梦别成真 让我梦到忘记疑问
寂寞就想想 那盏天灯 那指纹
怀念没有吻过的嘴唇
想像没有说过的永恒
错过纠缠不清的凌晨
逃过幻觉破灭的黄昏

到满脸皱纹 那场回忆比相恋逼真
曾经有一个人 燃烧过 一夜的青春

暗恋的明灯 一路上如烟火随身
宁愿那想像的情人 永远 保温
美梦别成真 让我梦醒不留疤痕
我的天空里 有他眼神 他体温

对与错只是一线之差

我们常分不清对与错，因为它们只是一线之差。某些时候我们认为是对的事，在别人眼里也许是错的。那么我们要怎么分辨对与错呢？我觉得只要我们做的每一件事都对得起良心，那就OK吧。除非你的良心被狗吃了，否则应该不会犯下大错。有时侯我们也要考虑到别人的感受及后果。不要因为个人的冲动而影响到别人。我是属于冲动行的，常会不小心得罪人。自己已经在慢慢改进了。希望让自己成为一个更好的人。

最简单就是最幸福的事

人有时想得太复杂了。其实看开一点会比较快乐。有许多事只要把它想得简单一点也许会是最幸福的。比如喜欢一个人就应该希望他幸福。与其去想尽办法要去得到他，何不祝福他得到幸福呢。如果你曾经做错一件事，不要只想着责怪自己，应该好好反省自己那里做错了，然后改过。其实我也好想简简单单的过生活。简单就是快乐吧！

我要快乐

我并不是天生爱寂寞
却比任何人都多
就算把世界给我
我还是一无所有
我要快乐 我要能睡的安稳
有些人不抱了才温暖
离开了才不恨 我早应该割舍
我要快乐 哪怕笑的再大声
心不是热的 全都是假的
只有眼泪是真的
把从前想了一遍
谢谢了 伤我的人
想做乐观的人
每种雨声 听了都不冷

命运能不能对我好一点???

我觉得命运常跟我开玩笑。特别是缘分。为什么总是让我遇上不能爱的男生？既然不能相恋，那么就不要让我们相遇。我累了。已经开始想放弃寻找另一半了。其实一个人开心的生活也不错吧。我发现原来喜欢一个人好累。特别是喜欢上不该喜欢的人。我虽然表面上很坚强，但内心是脆弱的。我经不起失败与挫折。所以我选择逃避。因为现实是残忍的，逃避会让自比较快乐。希望命运能对我好一点，让我找到属于自己的幸福。

Busy Busy

Haiz, it's been a super busy week for me after returning to work. I have been given a new task to assist with the Monthly Report to the Group Management Team and the deadline is this week. Since Monday, I have been busy checking the monthly production numbers of countries such as China, Vietnam & Indonesia. It's a challenging task especially with China cause I have to write & speak with them in Chinese. Speaking is not an issue for me but writing is a bit tough cause the terms used are a bit different. I discovered that my written Chinese has improved over these few days due to my frequent communications with them. I am also now compiling weekly reports for the Management for the all countries include Singapore & Malaysia. I am facing alot of stress every Monday cause the numbers need to be accurate since they are meant for the Management. But I am taking this chance to learn more since I am given such an important task to accomplish. Hope I can continue to do better in this current job.

Finally Recovered

Yipee, I've finally recovered from a week of sore throat, fever & cough. It's been a terrible week since I've never been so sick in my life. A BIG THANK YOU to friends who sent me their Get Well wishes via FB & SMS, those who constantly remind me to drink more water, those who helped me get lunch when I am too sick to go out and also those who got me green bean soup to reduce the "heat" in my body. I truly appreciate the kindness of all my friends.

I am a SICK GAL again

Gosh, this is the 2nd time in this year that I am falling sick. Think must be I am getting old & weak. I hardly fall sick when I was younger. But when I do fall sick, it gets pretty bad. The last time I got pretty sick was during Chinese New Year. Now I am sick again. I've down with sore throat, fever & cough since Monday. Went to see the doctor on Monday and was given MC for yesterday. Though I was on MC but I went back to office to settle something urgent before going home to rest. My fever was as high as 38.3 degrees on yesterday. Went back to office today but still don't feel good. Went to see the doctor again as I was still having a fever. Was given more medications and another 1.5 days MC to rest cause doctor also worried that I am still having a fever. He said that if I am still not well by Friday, I will have to take a blood test. I hope I can get well soon.

Tiger Beer Bath

Went to Dragonfly for drinks with some friends on last Friday. I haven been there for quite some time and also needed to change my St James card which has expired in April. We couldn't get a table so had to stand at the bar counter. The lucky thing is that the area that we are standing had a pretty good view of the stage. We enjoyed the "live" performances. Everything was pretty cool until me & my friend had a "beer bath". As we were standing at the bar counter, a beer tower toppled while the waiter was trying to carry it and the beer came pouring on us. My friend's back & my left side was drenched with beer. My friend was pretty upset cause we never expect such incident to happen to us. The waiter & manager did try their best to save the situation by offering us tissues to clean ourselves and a free tower of beer. We didn't take the free beer cause we couldn't finish it anyway. It was a fun evening except for going home in a "tiger beer dress".

最幸福的事 - 梁文音

你撑着雨伞 借我那次
已经足够我 记得一辈子
我懂後来你 不是不坚持
爱情本来就 没万无一失

泪水离开了 你的手指
那不如让它 流在这信纸
我想女孩子 最贴心的是
让爱的人选 结束的方式

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

可惜爱不是 童话故事
不能够永远 依赖着王子
才慢慢认识 只剩两个字
我怎麽忍心 为难你解释

我最幸福的事 当过你的天使
趁鼻酸能掩饰 让我们像当时拥抱最後一次
最幸福的事 吹蜡烛时你总为我许愿的手势
为挚爱的人 在左边心口保留位置 是最幸福的事

那一阵子有你 美得不像现实
多高兴每一幕 都微笑着静止

我最幸福的事 牵着你的日子
一段爱从开始 直至分开我们都对彼此诚实
最幸福的事 对那片海用力大喊永远的样子
想得起的事 那天和你傻笑着认识 是最幸福的事

勉强是不会幸福的

生命中有许多事不是你想象中那么顺利。我们常会去想为什么自己会那么失败。其实有些事只要尽力去争取就足够了。千万不要让自己有任何遗憾。就算结果不是想象中那么顺利，也不要气馁与失望。要明白一些事是不能勉强的，因为勉强是不会幸福的。何不珍惜曾经所拥有的美好回忆呢？因为这样你才会活得比较快乐。千万不要让自己活在痛苦的回忆中。要勇敢与坚强的度过一生。幸福是掌握在自己手里的。如果你拥有它，那就牢牢的握住。如果失去了也不要遗憾。因为我们还是能继续寻找下一段幸福。愿大家都能找到属于自己的幸福。

Doing Things Their Way

I seriously dun understand people nowadays. There are people who insist that others do things their way and did not even give you a choice to decide whether to do it or not. And when we do it their way, we realized that they themselves never do the same. They say one thing but do another. I am pretty disgusted by such people. I always believe that you earn your own respect from family, friends & colleagues. If you expect people to respect you, then make sure you do what you say. Don't make others do something but you never do it. Then what is the purpose by making others do things your way? Is it just to make use of them? Don't treat others as a tool. We give in cause we respect the person but don't ever betray our trust. I refuse to be treated like a fool and make to do stupid things. No more nonsense cause I am really pissed.

A Fulfilling Weekend

Had quite a fulfilling weekend last week. On Friday, went with some friends to Lot 1 to catch Jolin Tsai but only my frens saw her cause I am too short. We continued with dinner + movie watching at Lot 1. Watched Terminator Salvation this time. It was a pretty exciting movie but I didn't like the cinema cause it's under Shaw and the seats were small compared to Cathay & GV. Don't think I am ever gonna to watch movie there again.

On Saturday, my bro YY organised a day of healthy activities. We started with playing badminton at Sengkang CC. As I have not played for a long time, I had to start learning from basics. It was a pretty fun session as I have not sweat so much except from Hip Hop dance classes. We took turns to play as there were 5 of us playing. After the game, we went over to Anchorvale Swimming Complex to take a shower cause Sengkang CC does not have shower facilities. After that, we went to Compass Point for dinner, followed by bowling at Hougang. It didn't occurred to us that it would be tiring for us to bowl after badminton. We played 3 games and thanks to the "cracky" lanes, I managed to score above 100 for all the 3 games, highest score was 120. I have never played such a good game in my life. As some of my frens expected, I sure write this in my blog. I may not get such good scores again so better write them down. Hahaha.

On Sunday, I woke up with my right arm aching but still managed to go for my Hip Hop class. Finally we were taught something fun & easy. We learnt the dance steps for song "Nobody" by Korean group Wondergirls. The dance was fun & easy to learn and we had so much fun during the class. Look forward to many more such fun dance steps.

A Second Chance

Most people deserve a 2nd chance to learn from their mistakes. But sometimes it all depends on how serious is the mistake. Some made lots of mistakes but never realize until they fall badly one day. Those are the ones who are always very confident and think highly of themselves. Pride can be one of the major issue that they never realize their wrongs. Even if they knew that they are wrong, they will not admit their fault because of their pride. Sometimes it is also due to their trust in others. When they dun trust people, even if others highlight to them their mistakes, they will not believe. They will continue to think that they are right regardless of what others think. How do you determine if the person deserves a 2nd chance? Well, it all depends on your tolerance level and how close you are with the person. You must also look at how bad is the "damage". If you have been tolerating this person for a long long time and still no improvement, then maybe it's time to give up and move on. This apply in both relationships & friendships. You have think of both the good & bad that they have done over the years and measure whether it's worth it to forgive the person. Don't let a little dispute injure a great friendship.

我认输了

I got this from another person's blog but I find it meaningful.

对与错，我们都以为自己清楚。为别人好，那是我们的理由，却在别人眼里看成了借口。我们都没有想要伤害任何一个人，却偏偏在做出选择时，有些人被无意地牺牲了。结果被伤的得莫名其妙后，也只有认了这是当初的选择而造成的后果。我不是说我做的是对的，但我认为我做的，是当初情况下，最适合的选择。如今的不平与无奈，我也愿意承担下来。只希望这次是真的结束了。或许，就算没有结束，我的选择也改变了。因为似乎有比我好的人选，所以我选择退出这个‘戏剧’。不管了，冷静后的我，只想好好过我的生活。别人的，不管了。而不要叫我管什么，因为我不愿意承担这种吃力不讨好的差事。大结局，我不在乎了。反正、总之，我演不下去了。你们，加油哦！我，认输了.........

Paparazzi

When I was out during lunch running errands today, I met an ex-colleague along the way. We were from different depts although she is working for my ex-boss now. I was a bit surprised when she asked me bout winning the trip to Hong Kong recently. She even know that I went there to watch a concert. I have not been keeping in touch with some of my ex-colleagues and am a bit surprised that people there are still updated with my news. I do know some probably read the news from my blog. I wonder why people there are still interested in my news since most of them do not know me at all. Well, I do hope that it's the good news that are spreading around there and not bad ones. Though I do not think that I have much bad things for them to gossip about but I guess facts do get twisted at times to create some "spice" in people's life. Actually, it doesn't really matter even if its bad things about me so long I don't get to hear them. But if I do and I find out who is the person spreading it, then I suggest the person better be prepared to tell me where he/she get the facts from cause I do not appreciate people "bitching" behind my back. I am no celebrity so there is no need for people to talk about me when I am no longer there. If you are my frens, then you will hear the news directly from me and not from a 3rd party.

Night at The Museum 2

Hehe, I am watching movie AGAIN! Been watching alot of movies lately. Glad that friends are also keen to watch movies with me. Think it is good for me to engage in healthier activities such as movie watching. Be catching "Terminator" on Friday and playing badminton on Saturday. Looking foward to having more such healthy activities.

天使与魔鬼

我想在我们的现实生活中常会不同的人。有好人与坏人，也有天使与魔鬼。其实好人与天使是一样的。坏人与魔鬼也是。天使与魔鬼的定义是什么呢？

天使： 拥有一颗善良的心。有一些人外表看起来很恶劣，但却有一颗善良的心。

魔鬼： 喜欢陷害别人或不择手段来达到目的。有一些人拥有天使般的外表，但却有一颗魔鬼的心。他们表面上对每个人都很好，但却在你背后讲你的坏话或陷害你。

我们的身边一定会有许多天使与魔鬼。要怎么断定哪个是天使或魔鬼呢？这就需要我们自己细心的去观察。日子久了就会发现谁是天使与魔鬼。有一些人耳很轻，容易听别人所散播的谣言。有一些因为你所做错的一件事而忽略了你之前所做的每一件好事。我也曾经误会过朋友, 还好她宽宏大量没跟我计较。我现在也学会去观察每一个人来断定哪个是天使或魔鬼，这才会避免自己受到伤害。我虽然不是一个天使，但我自认每晚都睡的很好，因为我问心无愧。虽然我做的每一件事不都完全是对的，但我的出发点是好的。我从来没想过要伤害身边的任何一个人。当你做每一件事时，应该想想出发点与后果。千万不要去伤害到身边对你好的朋友。朋友所对你做的事，也应该想想朋友的出发点。如果有任何疑问，就跟朋友澄清，不要糊乱猜测。也不要听信别人的谣言。

你不一定要当一个天使，但做每一件事一定要对得起自己的良心。因为我相信这世界上是会有报应的。

Hong Kong Trip (20-22 May 2009)

Day 1 - 20 May 2009 (Wednesday)

Abby & me departed on our 3D2N trip in Hong Kong on 20 May (Wed) at 11am on CX714 flight. Though the timing is a bit late but we dun have much choice since its a free trip. The flight to HK was great cause we took a pretty new aircraft and the in flight entertainment was fantastic. I didn't sleep at all cause I was watching 康熙来了. Ended up watching almost 3 episodes with special guest such as Jay Chou, Show Luo & Ah Shin from MayDay. Arrived in HK at about 3pm and waited for our transfer to the hotel. As the bus had to also drop passengers for other hotels, we arrived at the hotel at almost 4.30pm which is slightly behind our planned schedule. After checking in to our room, we quickly made our way to Tsim Sha Tsui to begin our shopping. As usual, our 1st stop is Silvercord where we can find many of our fav brands such i.t, Fingercroxx, X-Large etc. We spend alot of time & money there. By the time we finished Silvercord 2hrs later, I already spend almost half of my money cause I bought an X-Large watch, some clothes from Fingercroxx and also a pair of heels from Judith Katie. After Silvercord, we proceed to Harbour City. Most of the shops were closed when we went over to Harbour City so only went to b+ab & G2000. Bought another 2 dresses from b+ab cause they were having attractive discounts for all the brands under I.T. It was almost 10pm when we finished Harbour City. We were both hungry & tired. Went over to 兴记 at Yau Ma Tei to eat our fav claypot rice & oyster pancake. After dinner, we went to Mongkok to try out luck to see if the shops are still open for us to shop. Unfortunately, it was almost 1130pm and the shops were mostly closed. Took a cab back to hotel cause we were too tired to walk.

Day 2 - 21 May 2009 (Thursday)

It was going to be another long day as we continued our shopping followed by MayDay Concert at night. Left the hotel at about 10am to take the shuttle bus to Kowloon Hotel to take the MTR to Central where we wanted to eat tim sum at 莲香楼. When we arrived there, we realized that the restaurant is under renovation and has temporary relocated to another location which is pretty far from where we were. Decided to eat at another cafe which sells yummy egg tarts and 波箩包. Breakfast was still good thought we didn't get to eat tim sum. After breakfast, we walked around Central area and I got myself a pair of Reebok track shoes from Pedder Red. We also went to check out Comme De Garcons and H&M. After Central, we went over to Causeway Bay and shopped at Sogo & World Trade Centre. Not much time for us to check out other malls cause we need to rush back to hotel to get ready for the concert. I managed to get a dress from G2000 & a top from bread n butter. Abby needed to help her sis Cat to get a bag from 潮流特区 in Mongkok so we made our way there after Causeway Bay. After getting the bag, we decided to go to this cafe call 极之好 to have our dinner. After dinner, we took a cab back to hotel to deposit our things and get ready for the concert.

Since the stadium is just opposite our hotel, it was a short walk over. Our nightmare came when we saw the queue to buy the concert souvenirs and tshirts. Fortunately, they were very systematic and it didn't take me long to get the stuff I wanted. The only sad thing was some of the tshirt designs had run out of sizes. After getting our purchase, we made our way into the stadium to locate our seats for the concert. As it was our 1st time there, we had to keep looking for ushers to guide us to our seats. I was not told what sort of seats they were going to give us since it was free. We were both shocked when we realized that our seats were on the FIRST row. I couldn't contain my excitement and Abby could see that I simply could not stop smiling. The seats were fantastic! It was even better when the concert started cause 阿信 was just standing less than 5 metres away from me and I could even see his pimples if there was any. We were seated at the centre block with the sponsors and he was near us most of time cause the monitor that displays the lyrics is just in front of us. If I watched the concert in Singapore, I would probably be standing throughout the night. For this time, I didn't stand much cause I was sitting on the 1st row and no one at my row stands cause most of them are sponsors. I did stand when he sang some of my fav songs and when I did that, I was the only one standing. It was a bit embarrassing but I dun really care since I am a fan of MayDay. They sang till almost 12am and had 2 encores cause the fans were so high. They simply refuse to leave even though the concert really ended. I was having so much fun & very high too. It was a fantastic concert and I am definitely looking forward to the one in Singapore in August.

After the concert, we went back to the hotel to pack our luggage since we are checking out tomorrow morning. I slept at almost 2am still feeling high from the concert.

Day 2 - 22 May 2009 (Friday)

Our last day in HK so we have to treasure every minute of it. After checking out of the hotel at 11am, we went over to Sogo @ Tsim Sha Tsui & Harbour City to do some last minute shopping. They were having sale at Sogo so we managed to grab some pretty good deals. I bought a pair of jeans & a blouse from Pepe Jeans, a bag from Ans and few pairs of socks to match my new shoes. Next was LCX @ Harbour City which we didn't have time to visit on Day 1. Went back to 极之好 @ Mongkok to have our fav luncheon meat + egg with rice. It may seem like a normal dish to you but it is our must-eat item when we go HK. Went back to the hotel at 4pm to pack our stuff into our luggage and wait for the bus to pick us up to the airport. More shopping at the airport and I burnt a bigger hole in my pocket by buying this Agnes B wallet with print of Eiffel Tower on it.

Overall, it was wonderful trip cause it's been some time since I last travelled with my best friend Abby. Moreover, HK is one of our fav countries to shop in since we share common liking to some brands there. Not many friends know how to appreciate the brands that I like. We were both very tired but I am sure we both enjoyed the trip tremendously. Many thanks to Abby for taking time to go on this trip with me. Look forward to travelling with you again.

I've been to Hong Kong many times but this is my most memorable experience since I was there to watch my fav band MayDay's concert. I will treasure the wonderful memories and I am thankful for all the blessings. MayDay Rocks!!!