After 2 months of breaking up with my ex-boyfriend, I decided to send an sms to him today to ask how he is. I didn't get a reply from him. I thought he is still upset with me on the break up. I suddenly missed him, especially when I see his pix in my phone. I was so upset with myself that I hide in the toilet to cry. I cried because I felt that I was very stupid to dump such a good boyfriend for someone who didn't even love me and cannot be with me. Although the main reason was we had communication problems but I cannot say that this is not part of the reason. I always tell my frens that I never regretted my decision to initiate the breakup. I do regret at times but there is no turning back. I did that because I do not want for him to one day find out that I did betrayed him in my feelings towards him. I fell in love for another guy when I was still with him. Although I didn't do anything wrong but betrayal in a love relationship is something that can never be forgotten.
Finally saw a reply from him via email. Am glad to at least get a reply from him even though he sounded so distant in the email. He is no longer the same anymore cause I caused him too much hurt. He had to move on cause I didn't give him any choices. He had to explain to his family & frens. My thousand apologises cannot make up for the hurt I had caused. I can only leave him alone and not cause him pains anymore. I really hope that one day he will find a girl that is more worthy for him.
SKK, wish you all the best and take care.
Wednesday, October 31, 2007
Break Up
After 2 months of breaking up with my ex-boyfriend, I decided to send an sms to him today to ask how he is. I didn't get a reply from him. I thought he is still upset with me on the break up. I suddenly missed him, especially when I see his pix in my phone. I was so upset with myself that I hide in the toilet to cry. I cried because I felt that I was very stupid to dump such a good boyfriend for someone who didn't even love me and cannot be with me. Although the main reason was we had communication problems but I cannot say that this is not part of the reason. I always tell my frens that I never regretted my decision to initiate the breakup. I do regret at times but there is no turning back. I did that because I do not want for him to one day find out that I did betrayed him in my feelings towards him. I fell in love for another guy when I was still with him. Although I didn't do anything wrong but betrayal in a love relationship is something that can never be forgotten.
Finally saw a reply from him via email. Am glad to at least get a reply from him even though he sounded so distant in the email. He is no longer the same anymore cause I caused him too much hurt. He had to move on cause I didn't give him any choices. He had to explain to his family & frens. My thousand apologises cannot make up for the hurt I had caused. I can only leave him alone and not cause him pains anymore. I really hope that one day he will find a girl that is more worthy for him.
SKK, wish you all the best and take care.
Finally saw a reply from him via email. Am glad to at least get a reply from him even though he sounded so distant in the email. He is no longer the same anymore cause I caused him too much hurt. He had to move on cause I didn't give him any choices. He had to explain to his family & frens. My thousand apologises cannot make up for the hurt I had caused. I can only leave him alone and not cause him pains anymore. I really hope that one day he will find a girl that is more worthy for him.
SKK, wish you all the best and take care.
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