This post is written specially for "YOU". Dun think I will ever have the chance to tell you so I have decided to write them in my blog hoping that you read it. You are someone who gave me some very good memories but sometimes I really hope it was just a dream. I wish that nothing had happened and we were still good frens.
Have you ever wonder why I have been avoiding you? Guess maybe not cause to you, such things dun matter. I really thought we could still be good frens but guess it was my wishful thinking. I couldn't see the effort in you wanting us to continue to be frens. Suddenly I woke up from my dreams and realize that maybe I was just a tool to you. You probably treated me as someone whom you can have fun with and also help you. You may wonder why I had such thoughts? Reflect on your actions and ask yourself. I was always there for you when you needed help. I was always there when you needed someone to talk to. Have I ever disappoint you? Never. But you have disappoint me again and again for the past few months. Promises were never kept. Maybe you couldn't even remember what you said to me when you decided to end this relationship. You never seem concern about frens' problems. You simply live in your own world. You only associate with people who can help you in one way or another. Maybe I was blinded by my feelings towards you and didn't see that. Its time I regain my sight and see the road ahead of me. Were you grateful to all the things I have done for you, I doubt? You may have regretted what you have done. I never regretted the path I took cause I could only blame myself for being stupid. I thought you were truthful to me and till this day, I still try to convince myself that you are. I told myself that we were both not wrong but just didn't know when to stop. I kept blaming myself for what had happened. Now to me, these are all crap. I was the only one who didn't know that what I was doing was wrong. I seriously don't think I owe you anything anymore. If its within my ability, I will still help you as a friend but don't expect more cause I am really tired and disappointed with you. You know I will never say no to you cause I still having feelings for you but please dun take advantage of me anymore. I have cried many times over you and till now my heart still hurts. I even started to hate you although I did promise that I won't. Its really about time to end all these pain you have caused to me. Its time to let go ........
Well, continue to live in your own world and I really hope you are happy. I will continue to pursue my own happiness. Well, guess even if you read this, it may not even make a difference to you. Take care and please dun repeat the same mistake again.
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