As some of my very close frens know, I've always had only ONE birthday wish every year. That is:"To find a man who loves me & I love him". The last time it took 10 years for the wish to be fulfilled but the happiness didn't last as long as I wanted it to be. This has again been my birthday wish for the recent 2 years. It has yet to be fulfilled and I do hope that I do not have to wait another 10 years as time is running out.
I think fate is playing a trick on me. For the past 1.5years, I've been trying hard to find my new love. Guys that I feel I can click with are not the good ones and I cannot click with the good guys. Do I really have to compromise & make myself change again just because I want to fit into a man's life? Is it my retribution? Am I gonna end up being alone for the rest of my life? Are my standards too high or am I not good enough for the guys out there? There are the questions that I've been asking myself. I am happy being alone and I am not desperate but it does feel good to have someone by your side. But I also do not want to go into a relationship just because time is running out for me. I do not want to make the same mistake as I did before. I was happy to fall in love and didn't consider alot of issues. I only realized that 3 years later. I was told that I would have some romance luck this year and I do hope it's true. Let's hope that I will have a partner to celebrate my birthday with me next year.
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